#531

Not knowing via social media feels good. I know I miss out on things like the opportunity to meet my close friends but I’ll always pray for them ❤️ 

#530

I think I have been writing especially in my diary since I was little. The earliest I could remember is when I was 14. Because I wrote A LOT about my crush, DZ. And he found out the nickname I gave for him. DZ as in dizzy. Lol!

Anyway, I don't know why people make blogging/journaling like a huge thing. But maybe because it is uncommon. Some people love to write, some people just don't. I fall into the former category.

Also, is it wrong that whatever I share, I don't think of its benefits to other people or whatever? I just want to give ease to myself, without hurting other people's feelings. Because people on IG always talk about, does my post give benefit to others? Like, I don't care. I post for myself. I don't give stories. That's just for me.

#529 Avi's 30th

I was wondering today, why April 17th was familiar.

I know 20th April is Alia MN's, 1st April is Akhyar's. Others?

Then I saw a series of photos posted by Avi Kaplan about his merchs.

It's his BIRTHDAY!!!!! AYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. But it's maybe already 12am, April 18th already there. But well, it's his 30th birthday :)

#528

I was reading Module 1.3 for AA Consistency Class, which somehow talks about what you are or what are your cores. I know I'm not a good student. But from the two sub modules and half of Module 1.3, something crossed my mind:

Things I like that I don't do anymore, but want to! SO badly

• Reading books
• Practice dance moves from most saved videos on my laptop/IG
• But I also like ML!

How do I divide time between these three? Reading is easy to slip in. But dancing is hm. I need to change into proper clothing. Stay in my room or the small room. Maybe I can use the time where I feel so sleepy after work, for dancing! Do something instead of sleeping or taking that nap. So that I would get tired fast and sleep early, to wake up for the next day. 

This is what I always say to myself lol making mental notes. But then I never wrote it down. Also, it is so unfair to myself that I wake up late for work, I sleep more than 5 hours a day, but then I still sleep after work.

It's bad. I don't like it. I like how productive I was in high school MRSM. My Chemistry teacher, Puan Lela Meon, said she always have 5 hours sleep for a day. And she maximises the remaining 19 hours of the day. 

I'm only 26 years old. Not 60. I can still do things like I used to.

I remember in Ramadhan, where after afternoon prep would be so tiring, you just want to sleep in. But no, I forced myself to go out to beriadah. Meeting boys helped me to get there lol Also I made a mental note to myself that, this way, I would be tired at night, and sleep would be easy. To wake up early for subuh, and having that fresh energy for classes.

Damn, I was that disciplined. Wahahaha.

Anyway. I'm gonna try to do it today.

#527 SOCKS!!!

At 11am today, I was like, why not do this pros and cons list for the socks? So I did.

Why should I buy the socks from @_kaeki?

1. I can't find it on lazada or shopee. Can you find it in Korea though? A'an is currently there but I don't want to burden her.
2. I like sparkling socks, like the one I bought in Cotton On in OZ for only AUD$1?!
3. I only have one pair of red socks and orange socks.
4. I have been thinking about it since 1st April 2019. More than two weeks HAHA

Why shouldn't I buy the socks from @_kaeki or any new socks?

1. I already have too many, especially from H&M.
2. When am I going to wear them?
3. I haven't actually rotate all the socks since I rearranged them according to colours :(

Conclusion at 12pm: I bought them. PLUS a pair of nude handsocks and black saeri leggings. I only had one pair of light grey saeri leggings. Thought of buying nude leggings but that would defeat the purpose of covering because it is kind of our skin colour. Unless you're very dark. So yeah. Total of RM125.

3 pairs of basic socks RM47 (red, orange, black)
1 pair of handsocks + 1 pair of leggings RM78

#526

Refer Post #508

No matter how many times I question why we were created, it already happened. People are born into this world. People already exist. So I kind of couldn't dwell on the past. To know that He simply can create and then give purpose to His slaves.

No matter how I wish I could die, planning of suicide attempts, I couldn't easily die.

It all leads to, "A person has no choice in this life but to strive towards the right path and to do good deeds."