#537

 

 Okay first, I know I should have confirmed with her, which courier she is using. I was confident it was Poslaju because previously she used Poslaju. In the end, I know I can't blame anyone.

So well, I think she knows that Ezibox is only for Poslaju because she said, "Ada customer bagi alamat ezibox juga, tapi sampai ke dia." So she knew. But can't she think more of that? I think she never experienced much on this, to have a customer other than ezibox UIA? Lol smh

Not even a sorry. Not even a reply. SMH.

Confidentnya la pos guna J&T dengan alamat ezibox. SMH

#535

Subhanallah. I feel so guilty for even let myself feel this way when it was happening.

Again, I'm so not in the mood to talk and give directions and what I want. My fault that I forgot to write a note on the app prior to booking.

The ride home, the driver took a route with toll, by following Google Maps - which is not recommended by me. But then, I thought, nevermind, just another RM2.50. Sabar. Accept, adapt, act.

Usually if you're not familiar with the exit, you would take a wrong lane. Thankfully he took the correct lane, the middle one. Yet, slightly before the next exit, I almost blurt out something but I didn't, and he took the wrong one, which is to Shah Alam. I heard him mutter something to himself.

All I was thinking, whatever, pretend like I didn't know the route at all. Like which route we should have taken etc. Still I was kind of blaming him for using Google Map or whatever. I was angry but I didn't show it. Sometimes I notice him glance to the left, maybe he wanted to look at my reaction, to say something. But all the way, I was looking outside the window. So he couldn't exactly start that conversation. I was thinking, why don't you talk or ask? I would always do that, when I was in Audit field.

Despite that, all the way, I kept telling myself, it's okay, now you know where this route goes, because I have been wondering about it. I kept telling that, despite later, we went through 5 tolls in total - which should have been only one. I was battling inside - my good side and my bad side.

I had to comfort myself, to let this go. I would let this go, by not confronting him, but at the same time, report to Grab if he charged me those 4 tolls. I still made a mental note to say thank you to him politely.

Usually I would feel guilty to ask them to actually drop me in front of the lobby of my block. But this time, I convinced myself not to feel guilty because of the incident happened earlier.

I did tell him politely to drive through the poll and said thank you.

I didn't check my phone until I entered the house. 

He charged me only the base fare, without a single toll. I felt frikin guilty. So guilty. I made du'a for him. And prayed that he forgives me if I ever did anything that made him terasa.

So I gave him 5 stars.

I learnt a lesson. He learnt his.

My lesson is that, always communicate to avoid misunderstanding.

Anyway, out of topic, I'm so keen on writing so long, as I have been reading e-books of The Night Angel and The Darkest Minds trilogy. So since then, I tend to write in details. Hee.

I didn't know that I'm also a writer other than a reader, as I stated in the heartwork for AA Consistency Class. 'Cause apparently I like to spam posts, like I did on tumblr. I'm treating this blog as tumblr haha. And I don't even care. As long as I understand my own writing. (But to be honest I couldn't quite comprehend some of my old posts, like who's the person I mentioned, where and when).

#534

I already felt something wasn’t good when the woman driver asked me where I live. I mean, I don’t like small talks.... especially when I’m not in the mood. Excuse me but I have mood swings, I’m human, I can’t be all positive 100% of the time. I was still aware not to be a jerk so I tried not putting my stupid stern face.

After a Q&A session on where the destination is, she decided not to use google map to save data. I thought, what? But then, okay fair enough. She uses more data than I do. Let’s see which route she’s taking. 

She took the road which needed extra 5 minutes to reach. Where she could just use the highway. She thought she knew so well that she doesn’t need a map, especially Waze?? Waze doesn’t use much data!

I know I can talk about this but I wasn’t in the mood.

Then she asked where to stop... which bus stop... like...  girl, save your time and use the map. Didn’t I give you the bad vibe in the first place that doesn’t tick you to google yourself. Lol

I’m safely arrived. Just that, in my point of view, you should trust Waze for its purpose. 

#533 Mom & Dad

This one time when the controversy between Cik Epal and CS was so fired up, I was so curious, so I googled, and found this forum specially to discuss famous popular people. In between my reading, I thought, this must be the same forum people were talking about my employer. But no, I don't want to find out. I know I'm easily swayed, but I know better to think of good in people, although it is a cruel world of unknown. It's easier that way so we can live at ease. *shrugs*. 

Anyway, so you know how easily you get from one gossip to another on internet. I suddenly found myself reading about dUck's owner. I was never keen of her. Something with her feels off. Her and her people. But I always tell myself to never judge, so I just end up not knowing about their lives and brands and whatever. Then there was a point that someone made, that dia bajet, acah omputeh, calling her mom 'Mommy' or something like that. Padahal mak dia panggil diri dia Mak je. I think it's Mak je, maybe, can't remember. 

So it got me thinking, I'm also like that. I don't actually call my parents straight to their face, Mom/Dad though. I only like to mention them as Mom or Dad in my writings, the names I saved in my phone, when I talk to myself, or in my head. I think back when I was keen of talking in English with Dad, I did call him Dad, but very rarely. He didn't mind, never flinched or whatever.

Now I don't talk with my parents anymore. Let alone to try to talk with Dad in English. Everything is awkward and uncomfortable, that I'd always rather shut my mouth and keep everything to myself. It's the saddest choice that I make in my life, after shutting out from having close friends.

#532 Ramadhan

A day before Ramadhan comes, I binged watch Iggy Azalea's Started and Sally Walker because they so goooood. They pronunciation when she raps I really love it. I always try to imitate that in my head, never actually tried it verbally. 

Anyways, the cussing, the twerking, all of it so wrong before entering Ramadhan. So now the songs stuck in my head. I had to istighfar every single second because the songs ring so loudly in my head it's hard to shake it off.

#531

Not knowing via social media feels good. I know I miss out on things like the opportunity to meet my close friends but I’ll always pray for them ❤️