Old crush

Before I even knew you went overseas, I've come to realize that I've made a mistake.

I know perhaps we remain friends now. Anyhow I don't even remember saying let's just be friends. And I remember that I didn't even want to have anything to do with you, after I confessed to you.

I realized, before I told people about my regrets. I already realized, that I have made a mistake. You were the only who see through me. Through whatever I am. At least I think it seems so.

It seems like I've let go of a perfect person. That total regret.

But now you don't even try to start a conversation or reply to my messages. Well I guess you're not that kind of person.

Hidup #9

Segala suka duka, penghinaan dan ejekan harus kutelan sendiri. Dan aku sedar risiko ini sejak mula, sejak aku tahu aku harus menjalani praktikal sendirian kali ini. Syakila dan Maria masing-masing membawa diri ke destinasi pilihan masing-masing.

I'm abandoning blogger. I have a more amazing way of expressing my feelings than here.
PEACE OUT.

Hidup #7

Mencari kejujuran manusia pada hari ini samalah seperti mencari sebutir permata daripada kilauan pasir di pantai, hanya satu dalam sejuta.

Hidup #6

Sekukuh mana pun tembok yang dapat menahan ombak kepedihan yang menggelapar dalam dada, ia akhirnya runtuh jua!

I could not sleep throughout that night... pt. 2

The second I turned to my left, a puma look-alike was about to leap at me, roaring, making its many layers of teeth visible. Yet with a speed of light, I jumped to the other side as to dodge its attack. I fell with a hard bump. It was painful but the beast was not about to give up.

I took a branch that lay on the floor which happened to have a sharp end and stood up. The beast gritted its teeth and I made the first move. I jerked the rather heavy branch towards the beast. Instead, the beast bit the branch and tried to shake if off my hands.

As I struggled, I thought, ‘Friday. It is the day that mother told me not to ever step into the woods on this particular day.’ She never told me why but now I got it.

An ancient story said that the beast was actually beyond a man’s fight. Without further due, I let the ranch go and broke into a run. I did not know where I was heading because fear rushed through me. I tried not to trip over the obstacles on the ground or a branch on my head. Adrenaline rush really helped me to survive.

I did not dare to turn around but just ran like a wind. When I saw an open end, I was the happiest person in the world. I kept running and the moment I saw something familiar about the open end, I tried to stop. Yet inertia kept me moving forward and when I did, I was actually jumping off a cliff to see a vast sea before me. I could hardly scream as I was approaching the water with an increasing velocity.

As the water seemed closer, I embraced myself and entered the sea with a big splash. Fortunately my three years of swimming class helped me to get my head above the water.

With a superior strength, I swam to the shore with a furious speed. As I reached the shore, I panted really hard. It was as if jumping from a frying pan into a fire! I looked high up above and saw the beast at the cliff. I could not believe that the cliff was extremely high, and I had survived the jump, without breaking any of my bones. I believed that no normal human could possibly survive that. That was why this terrifying tragedy made me wide awake, unbelieving of the truth.