Push you away

What am I doing..am I pushing you away? If I ever seem to push you away... maybe, I'm just afraid of losing. I don't want to lose anyone again. Especially you. It hurts.

Snapped

I still remember... how I snapped at her. In Tokyo. Like literally snapped, blew over the top. Just because she  didn't get the picture right. I sensed her anger. I felt guilty. I apologized straight away. I mean, who else in the world did I have back then? Especially in Tokyo? It was only her. I couldn't lose her. I couldn't stand the coldness even for 5 minutes.

And the best feeling is she forgave me. And we were back as usual, telling me not to do it again. I promise I wouldn't snap at her out of the blue. InsyaaAllah, I still won't.

I should have done the same with you. I knew that I snapped. I could feel it. I should have just said sorry straight away. Why didn't I see it? Oh dear... you never know how sorry I am, hurting you.

Twitter

Life before the likes of you having Twitter was so much more interesting. Yes I dislike seeing your fondness. Because I couldn't be a part of it. I never was. I never did. Reading the tweets even in this virtual world, it hurts. But I've always been amazed and happy for you of how happy all of you can be. I understand the happiness, because I couldn't help but smile, when seeing your happiness.

Side of your face

You know the pictures of handsome celebrities? Which in particular CLOSE UP pictures of the side of their face? That they still look so beautiful even when you see the side of their face?

Amazingly, that’s how I could see it on you. You are just so beautiful. I think I'm blinded by your beauty.

Knowing

Knowing you're going to read this and rape the refresh button... I can't help but being stuck with what I have to write. But still, I've nothing to write so far.

Stay tuned.

Love, really?

Even the exchange of saying 'I love you' between girlfriends is not always real.