#42

Suicidal thoughts are so easy to come by. I am useless in this house. I am unable to bear a child. I ignore my family. I ignore my extended family. I’m not doing good with the company I’m working with. I’m not handling the ‘fame’ well. I abandon my friends. 

Actually for everything above, it’s because I am unable to be a good wife. 

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The writing was paused for a while. 

But now I have a lil bit of time to write. I remember a video on TT saying you can count all the bad things happened or happening in your life but Wallahi you cannot begin to count all the blessings Allah has given you because it is countless.