#52

I like to think the worst of what people can be, and I know the worst that people can think about women/men, even when they are fully covered #shrugs people who play victim need to rethink their defences. 

#51

I will ALWAYS wonder if she thinks of me. I mean I know she has family and kids. But you know… as a distant sibling, I still crave that sisterly love 

#50

Yes, train yourself to be happy for people when they post happy things. But it’s so toxic for me. I’ll just mute everyone for the better of my own mental health & train myself, battle in silence ❤️‍🩹

#49

A comment on struggles of lgbtq+. It said something like nak anak, tapi takut tak adil dekat pasangan sebab takde nafsu dekat dia. And that’s why Allah SWT comes into the picture. 

You may marry that person, you have children with that person, but you don’t love them, you don’t have lust for them, you still struggle with your perasaan songsang. But it’s the acceptance by your spouse and your own, that even if you don’t love him/her, you love Allah, you do it because of your love for Allah and that’s what makes you move forward even if it hurts yourself because you can’t experience “real love”. Real love is the love for Allah, to obtain his Redha and Blessings. Knowing you struggle to fight the feelings, knowing that Allah is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim, that He sees and knows your every struggle. I mean I’ve seen and heard about this story. And it’s beautiful, when you put Allah first. 

It’s easy to say and talk about it. But it’s hard to implement it to my own. Le sigh. 

#48

Personally for me for my situation, suicidal thoughts are normal. It’s not a sign of depression. I would say to myself that alasan je tu nak kata diri sendiri depressed. I guess so. I never been to a therapy but I don’t think I’m depressed. I go about life as usual. Whenever suicidal thoughts cross my mind, I still think of Allah, my sins, wanting to do repentance, the fact that I haven’t actually do the repentance. 

It’s easy to say and talk about it. But it’s hard to implement it to my own. Le sigh. 

#47

Dude I miss mom. It’s rare to see her smile with teeth showing in photos. And when she does, it’s just so beautiful. She must be really content ♥️ but here I am feeling hopeless ❤️‍🩹

#46

Unnecessary things I do but it makes my texting experience smoother:

Memorising the placements of emotes 🫠 

#45

Me bila sambil drive, cari dan nak pilih kedai makan yang best: 

 - Hm kedai ni macam tak meriah je sikit je orang 

*teruskan judge scan satu kedai dari jauh*

 - Eh tapi ada akak cantik!! (yang jaga kedai tu) 

 - Boleh lah try makan sini

😌 

#44

Munton asks for simple streamer data and numbers. While I go extra miles to provide them many things 😂 I guess the accountant in me can’t be tamed. Habits die hard.