#49

A comment on struggles of lgbtq+. It said something like nak anak, tapi takut tak adil dekat pasangan sebab takde nafsu dekat dia. And that’s why Allah SWT comes into the picture. 

You may marry that person, you have children with that person, but you don’t love them, you don’t have lust for them, you still struggle with your perasaan songsang. But it’s the acceptance by your spouse and your own, that even if you don’t love him/her, you love Allah, you do it because of your love for Allah and that’s what makes you move forward even if it hurts yourself because you can’t experience “real love”. Real love is the love for Allah, to obtain his Redha and Blessings. Knowing you struggle to fight the feelings, knowing that Allah is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim, that He sees and knows your every struggle. I mean I’ve seen and heard about this story. And it’s beautiful, when you put Allah first. 

It’s easy to say and talk about it. But it’s hard to implement it to my own. Le sigh.