#35

3 July 2022 at 5:35 PM

I’m gonna talk about this later. 

Okay I’ve so many points in my head and ice talked to Ha about it, idk if I could remember them all now xD

Anyway. Point dia last sekali tu macam invalid. 

Lain kali tanya seller dulu sebelum rating. 

Even you already tell me everything about it, it won’t change my decision. I still don’t like the candies. 

I would change what I write though, like, additional of “seller told this and this but still I don’t like it, it’s my personal taste. So the rating is only 1 star. And the fact that you as a seller a businessman responding like this, Seller service is also 1 star.”

Pastu takde mitigation proses ke? Kenapa seller tak bagitahu awal-awal cara nak bagi candy tu tak liat. Dah tahu orang pernah cakap liat kan? Takde tulis kat description sale item? Adakah cara tu boleh ubah candy tu jadi sedap?

Kalau ada pun, kenapa saya nak susah susah nak go through proses of bagi candy tu tak liat, sedangkan kat luar sana ada candy yang SEDIA ADA lagi sedap dari yang ni.

“Kami tak nak customer terima barang dalam keadaan cair sebab tu dia liat.” 

Dah satu minggu lebih dapat candy ni, kenapa masih liat? Rasa masih sama, takde rasa sangat? Keadaan candy tu masih tebal. 

“Produk dari Turkey”

Jadinya maksudnya produk tu tak sesuai la dengan taste saya. Dah produk dari Turkey. Awak bagitahu saya pun, sama jugak saya bagi rating 1 star sebab memang says tak suka candy tu. 

Dah la BM nak type berterabur. Nampak sangat ikut kan emosi tu.  Memang nak elak max characters tapi???? Boleh reply panjang la sebenarnya. 

Sebab liat adalah kerana–

Liat sebab produk–

Pastu signs short form. Pastu takde koma, pastu tanda noktah pun jarak. Tulis dengan emosi eh. 

Dah la pergi wasep pastu cakap nak refund 50%. Bukan sahaja refund 50% je, dia minta lagi tukar rating jadi tinggi. 

Satu, refund 50% je. Orang lagi-lagi bab makanan ni refund 100%. Dah saya tak boleh makan candy tu, tak sedap bagi saya. Macam tak ikhlas nak jual barang. *dah lupa point apa yang strong kat sini tapi ni la dia setakat ni. 

Dua, minta tukar rating. Tak nak????? Awak suruh saya tipu orang yang candy ni best?????? Bagi saya tak best, kenapa nak bagitahu kat orang yang candy ni best? Tak boleh terima kritikan ke. Manja sangat. Saya pun bagitahu terima kasih seller sebab free gift, 5 stars untuk sellers service tapi bila dia cakap camni, terus 1 star. Rating overall yang orang nampak adalah tentang item yang dijual. Jadi relevan lah saya bagi 1 star sebab memang candy tu tak best bagi saya. 

Dah lama tak rasa tak puas hati dengan seller. Last sekali rasanya pasal penjual-penjual baju kat IG.  Ni kat shopee pulak. 

Saya dah letak rasa empathy dah dekat seller ni, fikir in his perspective. Dan kalau saya di tempat dia, memang saya tak akan cakap macam tu. 

I put effort in writing my rating and I feel that people deserve to know about it. Bukan nak menjatuhkan tapi nak awak improve lagi lagi dalam seller service. 

Cakap la something like, “Terima kasih untuk rating anda, sangat bermakna untuk kami improve kekurangan kami. Maaf kerana ia tidak mencapai taste cik. Produk adalah dari Turkey, etc etc. Terima kasih.” 

And so many other pep talks actually that we’ve discussed together. 

Update Friday, 8 July 2022, 2:07PM

LOL ya Allah kak tolong kak tolong lah jangan bagi ruang untuk saya komen lagi pasal akak….. 

Saya tahu saya ada kekurangan juga tapi tu lah Komen akak ni lucu lah. 

Bila orang guna duit dia, walaupun RM1, kena lah jadi fussy. Dah la description tulis guaranteed sedap, HIGH QUALITY. Walaupun RM4.95 je untuk mini pack. Masalahnya apa yang saya dapat tiga-tiga pack semua tak sedap tak “rich in flavour taste” langsung. 

Lepas tu kata kita rude. Saya bagi Komen saya, takde mencaci, siap terima kasih bagi gift. 

TAPI KAN TERIMA KASIH BAGI EFFORT DAN MASA RATING SAYA ♥️ SEMOGA AWAK BERJAYA DUNIA AKHIRAT AMIN. 

#34

This is not anxiety. This is just something. I can’t sit still. Maybe because of too much caffeine. Or maybe it’s that procrastinated work, and that I have to go to office, and that I have to stream tomorrow. 

I wanna cry. 

Can these blog posts be one of the medium for me to confide to Allah SWT

I just used a new word I don’t think I’ve used it before even in school. Confide. Heard it before but not use it even in my thoughts. I guess. 

Well. One thing I know right now is my heart is not at ease. I’m thinking too much, yes? Le sigh. 

#33

You know when people say if you’re sad or you’re just not doing good in life, don’t tell your parents, don’t let them worry. 

But all I want, the only person I want to know all my feelings and thoughts is mom. If only she knew. 

And I know I will regret not telling. And this will haunt me for the rest of my life. 

#32

Dude I saw a story from my cousin posting about her parents i.e. my uncle and aunt and it breaks my heart how they look... old. You see them ageing just like how you see your own parents age. 

It breaks my heart because I miss my parents. They are getting older day by day. And I'm just here... dwelling on life.

#31

I look at how people are posting updates about their lives to public, or at least their friends. I smile, and feel happy at how they make themselves happy. Because truly happiness is a choice. 

To dwell on the past or to live in the present.

To worry on the future or to make the present worthwhile. 

One week. Or rather two weeks. I have been sleeping late at around 4am and waking up at around 3pm. That phase comes again. When I have nothing to do. 

I'm sorry my dear husband.

I'm sorry mom. I'm sorry dad.

I'm jealous. Jealous at my nieces. How they can spend time with my parents. 

I promised myself to fix my sleeping pattern. By finding something to do. What can I even do despite streaming? I can write. I can journal. There are so many things. So many things that have happened that I couldn't actually stop and reflect. I do it but only in my mind, random times, before sleep, in the shower. Sigh. 

And he's just waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting and waiting for me to make the move.

Am I destroying myself? Am I destroying him? 

There are so many people I want to tell these things. My cousin Lina, my sister-in-law Kak Ya, and actually my mom.

This guilt has made me become stunted. Locked in place. I don't talk to mom anymore. She cannot worry about me. 

All this. Because I couldn't love my husband. Do I even try? He loves me so much. What do I do in return? 

#30

One of my supporter reminds me of my cikgu akaun, Puan Aminah. I know I don't visit my teachers or even keep in touch with anyone, but gosh... I think I was really rude to her, like bongkak, ego, berlagak pandai. Coz dude, I got almost 100% in every exam. It was that easy.

And maybe because of that, it hard for me during SPM, no kidding. I still remember how it was hard on SPM day.

I don't know if I actually  showed my bongkakness or how clever I was, but I feel like I did. And I feel stupid. 

But knowing how empathetic I am, how teachers look at me wit high EQ, I think I hid it well, or battled it well. Battled with my own devils, yakno.

So I insyaaAllah she will always be in my prayers.