Again I let myself see things that can make me look down on myself...
Looking at people's feed doesn't inspire me. I make comparisons and it's bad for my mental health. Yes it's good to pray for them. Turn your jealousy to du'as. But I just can't handle it right now.
After realising I was drowning in the thoughts of comparison, I brought my thoughts to, Erin, what that happened today that you can be happy about?
"My new clothes."
And I think again in a split second.
"In fact, not just material things in the world. But to be you and do you."
And so I feel thankful, closed the app and just reporting 'Not interested' to those kind of feed.
I'm just an introvert who just shares whatever without giving tips and selling stuff I guess.
And still my supporters, my subscribers who subscribe each month are one of the pillars of my strength. So I need to stop thinking bad about myself because they don't. It really seems like they don't.
Why do I tell myself I need to stop? Because even your loved ones can be annoyed and f-ed up when you always downgrade yourself.
Welp.
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