#179

I have to stop feeling left out when the truth of the matter is that I'm not close to them 😔

#179

My principle of life:

People wouldn't know that I'm engaged. No fancy hantaran. No fancy pelamin.

#178

 

One of tumblr obsession 

Then another self obsession

#177

Part of me is upset of how I am not looking forward for growth. Because I am always yearning for a job like you only need to stay in office and you don't need to travel elsewhere. Because it will be a daily routine and things don't have to change and you don't have to find places and you don't have to adapt to that new situation every (average of) 2 months.

#176

That turn off moment when a good song have bad lyrics.

Like Let's Marvin Gaye and Get It On and Love Me Like You Do

Hmph

#175

When I had no one to go to the concert with, my friend willingly did. Before the concert, I got in early. So I stood at the middle, second row, with my other two pentaholic friends met over tumblr.

When she entered the area, I went to her, and asked her to join standing at our place. So we stood for some minutes. Then after a few moments, she walked out from the crowd and sat down somewhere uncongested.

Then I received an SMS. From her. "Kita ingat Erin takde kawan tadi.. Honestly that's why I bought the ticket in the first place."

I was contemplating to abandon my post and go and sit down with her or just stay standing at where I was standing. I was thinking that if she's my friend, and she knows I'm so crazy in love with PTX, she would understand. This text might just be nothing. And I have other (newly) known friends here standing with me.

But then her text really hit me. My tumblr friends, I just met them.... Concert or whatever else in the world, friends come first. Dan hati orang kena jaga. I thought about the aftermath if I didn't abandon my post for her. It seemed bad.

So when I went and join to sit down with her, I was glad. I felt relieved. I didn't lose my friend. She's one of the the sweetest and coolest person I've met and I didn't want to lose that. When or if she mentions me, I would be so honoured to be called as her friend. And anyway, my tumblr friends joined us a few moments afterwards, 'coz seriously it took a long time to wait.

#174

Lol I miss how I had all the time to actually write the whole thing of the day and not just some censored cut scenes with emotional kick

#173

When you are in the crowd
or when you look at a photo of people
your mind was set
your eyes couldn't help
but to search for that one person
and as you lay eyes on him,
you could feel a rush of tranquility sinking in
and everything else does not matter

#172

The ridiculousness in my good looking guyfriends
I give up

#171

Lol I'm in love with some friendship that I have noticed here at my work place. They're so close that they just talk to each other effortlessly.

And today I coincidentally wore the same pattern of shirt with two of my seniors. If only I could get us together for a photo, that would be cute.

#170

#168

Oh how I feel flattered when I caught cute guys staring at me (but this is when I don't wear glasses). But still.

Idk man. I feel so giggly lately. I mean, I watch Plan Cinta Tak Jadi and like damn that drama makes me feel all bubbly. Maybe I miss feeling that way. Because in some way, we have stopped being so. Or maybe because it's hard for us to meet. I don't know.

So many cute guys.
The airport dude.
The bawak pokok dude.

Damn it I really want to run away from this country. I really want to go there. I do not want to stay here. I do not want to do MBA. I want Professional Accounting. I know I don't know what I want to do in the future or what business I want to create. I just, want my parents to be happy.

#169

ACCA is already a master level. Yet you are still not entitled to hold the "Master" because honestly... they're just exams