#516

MasyaaAllah. It has already been two months in 2019. Lol I'm bawling

#515

I was listening to Anywhere We Go by Kaptan. It’s my personal theme song for my journey in OZ with my close friend and mutual friend.  So then I remembered our memories there. Those happy moments, all the things we go through together there. I mean honestly I never had close connection with my close friend  except that trip. Kinda beat all other sleepovers? Maybe idk. 

After the trip to Kelantan, I stopped texting her. I felt like we broke up. As friends. It was painful. Then I reconnected with her. With a simple question about lingeries. masyaAllah. From there on, I have received many signs that you don’t have to break up or terasa or whatever. If you love each other, you’ll always be friends insyaaAllah. 

The song made me reminisce the good times in OZ which reminded me of Umirah Taib’s talk about husband. That when you’re so mad at your husband of what he has done, you take a step back, calm yourself and list down the good and bad things about him. Or just simply think about the good memories and promises you made to each other. 

And masyaAllah it was those memories that made me glad that I reconnected with her. 

Aida Azlin constantly make me feel fondly of a girl friend. 

Then the video message from Miss Nina about a girl friend even though you are married already. 

Also the live video from Mizz Nina about keeping the friendship because of Allah. 

Then the video from DOPsTV from Iman and Amal, Weird & Wonderful about friendship and social media. 

masyaAllah isn’t it wonderful that I discovered those videos after I decided to just text her and like, lantak lah even tho dah lama tak text and such, I’m just gonna ask her. MasyaAllah how Allah gerak kan hati aku untuk text her

and the video call was unexpectedly so much about religion and our life. It ended abruptly that I hope we could continue to talk more... but maybe it was enough for now. I pray that I didn’t offend her in any way. 

To top it all off, without realising it. I actually love her and my other close friends. I thought I don’t love anyone because it’s a grey area to be understood. But in these grayish situation, I actually do. 

It’s funny how there have been so many things happened in the years of our friendship. If you know you meant that much to each other, then insyaaAllah the friendship lasts. 

#514

Kakak is always a mystery. I miss her so much even though I’m not close with her or even have many memories with her. She wasn’t there in huge part of my life but still I miss her. Idk if anyone ever feels this way. I want someone to explain to me what this feeling actually is :/

#513

Everyday is another day. Be it a new year, our birthday, your anniversary. It’s just another day for you to do good things with a mental note that, we ALWAYS run out of time. Know that. A second passed by is another second wasted to do things fisabilillah.