Aug 14, 2017


maybe i don't deserve any friends or relationships. from the beginning of my life. all i do is hurting people. 

so you realise all you have is your family. no matter how you think your friends are your family, it's just difficult. 

you're just useless and hopeless. 

Aug 13, 2017


It's my loss. But you can't admit it would be your loss too. Coz you're too damn good. I'm upset. 

Aug 8, 2017


"Journaling makes you reflect, realize and truly internalize what you’re thinking about."



Hey I never felt this way
Can't get enough
So stay with me
It's not like we got big plans...
Let's drive around town, holding hands

And you need to know
You're the only one, alright, alright
And you need to know
That you keep me up all night, all night.

Oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe
So bad. So bad.

Mad cool in all my clothes
Mad warm when you get me
Slow dance these summer nights
Our disco ball's my kitchen light

And you need to know
That nobody can take your place, your place
And you need to know
That I'm hella obsessed with your face, you face

Oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe
So bad. So bad.

Aug 7, 2017


I miss my friends. I want to tell them everything. But I know what they will say; the things that I do not want to hear. 

I want to meet them, and forget my problems, and be happy. But the last hang out was a disaster. I was silent, more than usual. I was not happy. My thoughts were bubbling inside, but I couldn't spill them out. In the end I regretted hanging out. Orang nak jumpa, nak cakap banyak banyak, happy or sad. But then I was so quiet. Tak best.

At first I was surprised seeing photos of last night but then it hit me, it was our schoolmate's wedding. The one that he did not approve in going, when it was due to RSVP. But when the time came, we did nothing on that day. He had something to do, but I didn't. I could have gone there and have some fun time with my friends. But then I missed it. It just makes things worse.

Multiple times that I wish to hang out with them. But then I know it would just be another hambar hang out with me.


Aug 1, 2017


Never settle when your heart says you feel less than you did yesterday.

"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday."


Relationships. Never rush into things.

But then, if you really think you wanna be with that person, chase him/her. Don't wait. Chase until you tie the knot. That there's no room for someone else to take his/her breathe away like how you do.

If you think you have fallen out of love on a person, leave. If you have fallen for someone else, leave the current one. Take your time. Think. Give your heart some time. Don't break your heart because of your own stupid decision.

My heart.