Jun 30, 2013

Quran recitations

Bila dengar orang baca Quran atau berzikir, rasa tenang je hati. Takde nak mengelupor, macam bila dengar lagu yang melaghakan ni.

Tapi lumrah manusia suka dengar lagu lagu macam tu. Susah nak elak. Tapi boleh cuba. Boleh cuba.

New hair

First time to go for a hair treatment in a saloon! Gosh it was so good. Thanks to atul. I need to take care of my hair! It's an essential. Maintenance perempuan ni tinggi!

Studies affected

I told them that this might affect my studies, that I'd blame this if really my studies were affected. But that sounds childish to them. It is unnecessary that this could affect my studies, they say.

But maybe they're right. Maybe the actual thing that has been affecting me is my distant relationship with The Creator.

Women and clothes

Since after reading about women in Syria... I thought... there are other unfortunate Muslimah who are abused and raped to death like in massacre, while here, we are busy thinking and worrying on what clothes to buy or how to get money to buy those beautiful dresses when actually you already have lots of clothes you can wear. Since then, every time I wanted to buy some clothes... these unfortunate women crossed my mind.

It happens especially since Being Me Conference. I couldn't buy any. But to be honest I bought a niqab and  unique socks and that's all I bought (which are categorized as clothes). Others are just buttons.

But well, plainly because I already have too many clothes and the rotation is just so not frequent. I have to resist buying new ones.

And Yusha Evans said, we are one ummah. One body. If any part of the body hurts, you cannot sleep well or be okay with it, you just could not sit still. And there are so many brothers and sisters suffering out there, which we should be reaching out for them, pray for them and do something.

Yet I still could not find a way to help. How?

Jun 28, 2013

Seek knowledge

You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to, the people you meet, the dreams you have, and the conversations you engage in. You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean, breath of the fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner.
You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life. You are every single second of every day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence. Let the words run through your veins and the colors fill your mind
- Jac Vanek 


Beli kain sama jenis dengan yang dijual. And tunjuk gambar tu kat orang buat baju, minta dia buat sebijik macam dalam gambar tu. Seems legit.

Padahal curi idea orang haha

Jun 26, 2013

Living Diary

This is how it feels to have a living diary. They tell you, respond to you how foolish you are to keep telling the same stories and even the morals itself but never learn from them.


And until today, it has become a secret. Unspoken. Never will it be let out. And my dear, I wish I could have just told you.

Jun 24, 2013

Wedding Epi

I feel guilty. To not put all my happiness to my brother's wedding. I was too busy worrying on my finals. It was somehow not fair for my brother. I still tried to play along, coz I knew, that what goes around comes around. You need your family most. Remember that.

Here is the day of joy.

Jun 21, 2013

Guys and problems

To guys, they won't see the matter as a problem, unless it is really a problem.
Well, girls are complicated. Everything seems to matter, big time.

Jun 20, 2013

Joyful mum

Seeing mum happy is the best thing ever. I hate to see her looking sad and sick. It feels good to see her joyful like a kid getting a candy. I love you, Mum

Jun 12, 2013


I've decided. That Imma post about my life here, including photos. Not intended for public, not intended to capture any attention, to troll anyone, or tag the posts so people can find it. Nope. It's the kind of posts that I know I'm telling certain people about myself and my life. Intended for a chosen group of spectators, at least that's what I thought whenever I'm writing.

Official dates?

So I'm the first among us. I never thought I'd have one as early as this. Well. I'm glad and happy to spend the days with you.
Alah bajet
Gedik nak edit camni

During brother's wedding..

And still I couldn't get to actually tell mum and dad

Jun 10, 2013


There's a group that I was invited to, which I'm already in. And the name is Xtahu. How cute for my MRSM Kuantan friends to create that.

And back at the time, I just couldn't care less whether I could join them or not. I was too ignorant. Maybe I still am. I'm such a bad friend.

Jun 8, 2013


Saja la tengok cara jawab yang betul. And I got those wrong. Haha spoil mood holiday.

Mungkin gagal F9. Tapi semestinya tak nak gagal. Nak lulus.

Harap semua pass. Aameen. Nak over confident pun tak boleh. Nak kata ada fail pun, tak nak fikir camtu.

Tawakkal je lah

That sweat

I cleaned my room and the kitchen and part of the living room!!! Mopped some part which have been bugging me since. Hahh what a bliss! What more having to sweat as if cleaning was an exercise.

The arrangements are still the same, still looks untidy. But at least I know the dusts or stains are cleaned up.

If Mum knows, she must be like, 'Kat Rumah tak nak pun buat!'

Haha kat Rumah ada Mak, jadi malas nak buat. Teehee.

Jun 7, 2013

Bye June 2013


Now I can talk to you all day long

Haha k

Thank you my bebehs for the prayers v

Jun 5, 2013

x marks

I felt dumb, I felt stupid. Which my marks didn't even portray my 'cleverness', instead I'm just a fool. I couldn't compete with that cleverness. I wouldn't. Might as well just run away from it.

Chances and change

It's stupid for crying over this. It's stupid. It feels so stupid when there's still time to change anything. There are still chances. Just how well do you take that chances to good?

Jun 4, 2013

Eerily silent

I couldn't. It's just the way I am with every one. I stay low. I say nothing. I just sit back and watch you grow, be happy when you are and be melancholic when you're down. And you're always in my prayers, conscious or not.

It's true, I've felt that there are so many people who are better than us out there. And it makes who I am now. I couldn't, with the least confidence to speak up, instead I just stayed low.

Because their presence means a lot more than us chasing for strangers adoring us

Do pray for my exam

Hello darlings,
It's time to put it to use. My dear darling once told me ask the whole world to pray for you.
Well I hope you pray for my best, for this finals. I can bear no more failures.


Jun 1, 2013

It's time

All the people went,
'Have you a boyfriend?'
'Where's your boyfriend?'
'I saw you just nowwww~'

This time I couldn't lie, I couldn't say no. All I could do was smile, and be as thrilled to have someone like you.

And they came

I’m happy mostly because my darlings came to ‘my’ place