Not Enough

Celebrating raya for only a week ain't enough. Especially when I'm studying in a boarding school. As oppose to my friends in hometown, they could go beraya anywhere they want, whenever they want. Unlike me, I'm gonna be stuck in that prison. People call it prison because you just, can't, get, out! No wonder some students break the rules as couldn't hold themselves much longer.

Even so, I know boarding school is undoubtedly beneficial. And FUN.

Perhaps I just wanna be home. It has already been five months!

I want what you have

Being unmindful as I often do, I just knew that I always want what you have. It can't be jealousy. It's just that, I admire your sense of style. As well as your personality. If only I could be more like you. Sometimes I get so angry at you as you say you lack of something, when the thing is you don't.

Certainly you don't know this until just then, right Atul? :P I'm sorry, it's just my nature to keep things to myself teehee.

Nonetheless I can't be like you. You are you and I am me. Just two different persons posses different qualities. Apparently I have yet to know what I actually want.

Busted

I wanna tell you a stupid thing that I've done. It took place in a computer lab. There wasn't any usable computer left at the back. And the teacher gave us an assignment. So I had no choice but to use the computer exactly at the front, that was very obvious to teacher.

I don't know what I was thinking. It hadn't occurred to me that teacher actually cared on what we were doing to the computer. So I bluntly surfed TWITTER and BLOGGER, since students can't access Friendster, MySpace, and Facebook.

Actually, I tried to access blogger as to update my blog. Surprisingly I couldn't get in. I mean, blogger shouldn't be blocked. Somehow it's the source of information.

I was dang worried, so I tried to go to Yahoo!. Failure. Then, MSN, yet another failure. Even Google! It seemed as if I was such a fool 'cos if you can't get to Yahoo!, it's quite impossible to access other webs.

The twitter window wasn't closed yet, so I finished off the sentence and clicked Update. Of course, it loaded so long. Heck, it didn't even connected to the internet.

A pang of realisation hit me that the teacher blocked my account's access to the internet. When I turned my head around to the teacher, he was intensely doing his work. I wasn't silly to be oblivious of that. I knew he saw it. Nevertheless, if there was a slight thought crossed my mind that teacher was obviously gonna block it, I wouldn't have surfed those web in front of him.

Let's hope it ain't permanent.