#558

You know it feels good when your friend has get something at least one thing in their life together. Like, I feel so happy for them, even though the future has yet to come. But for now, it's good news.

But sometimes I just don't know how to reach out to comfort them when they seem like they need someone to pour out things to.

#557

I guess I can't be left alone because that's when I think of the worst and stupidest things - my own death and dying.

#556

And I can’t blame anyone for not letting me in. 

#555

I’ve said this before and I’m saying it again. I think, when I die, nobody actually has good things to say about me. Neither do bad things. Because simply I don’t exist. I never cared for anyone. I doubt I am deeply missed. And I think that’s okay. It’s okay. 

#554

Mom called, I had no mood. I just want to be away from them. So I was harsh. And I can hear from her voice on the phone, the utter disappointment and kecilnya hati mak when I was being harsh. 

And Erin, you still wonder why your life does not have tranquility?