#3

I don't share what I do as my career, to my closed ones. It's kinda selfish, as it goes, I don't share, hence I don't care. But what I'm tryna say here is that, when they found out what I do, and even share it with me, screenshot, or just commented on my live stream, I feel so touched, terharu.

Coz I like anonymity, but when they found out and showed positivity, I just feel so happy.

So recently it was Attira — my twin in MRSM like masyaaAllah sister. I don't know why but I just feel happy that she reached out. Because few weeks or months before, I just browsed through her IG to find out that she got married, and I secretly (not so secret now) made du'a for her and the people around her. Alhamdulillah.

It's today that I got my monthly date too haha. So many things I planned to do, but failed, mostly on waking up for fajr and then work after that. 

I guess what keeps me going, everyday, to do live stream, is just to make people happy and myself happy. To spread that positivity, to share the common things, common experiences, good and bad. Despite me being bad at the game and in every live stream there is ALWAYS something that I lack of. Like if I have a checklist of 10 things to do in each live stream, I will never get 10 out of 10. 

Life is tough haha

#2

You’re right. Blame me. Everything is my fault 😌 Get mad, get rid of me 😌

#1

7:32PM

When my friends don't reply, I feel like my existence irritates them. That I should stop texting them and such. Coz I've been annoying them with my existence and my random texts.

Yes I'm sorry, I'm kinda putting my worth on whether my friends are replying or not.

I feel sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt hasjdkfhasjdklfhajskd bye

7:44PM

LOL at my first post of the year, being negative -.-"

It's okay. I'll just go away forever. Thanks for layan-ing me since we knew each other.

*disappears*