Dude... we had a talk. We realise, that, it's his nature that he's the way he is. All so mighty and anger.
He's always apologetic afterwards, and I always need to be understanding.
We've come to that terms insyaaAllah.
May Allah reward us for our love and patience for each other.
Lahaula walakuata illabillah aliyil azeem.
6:08pm
Okay so I was scrolling Facebook, wanted to take a nap whenever I feel sleepy. But then there was a post that irks me...
So now let's go to the post that irks me.
I don't know if you can read the text oh the photo. But I just kinda hate, really, like hate how some people put it this kind of way, that if you can stream at night and also gift me something like this, then a wifey wouldn't mind that you stream at night.
Maybe I'm biased because the ring is something that you wear and other people can see. Because to think again, I might would have wanted something from my husband if I were in her shoes, i.e. having kids and husband streaming at night.
But... I'm just so done with material stuff. I don't want a big house, a big wardrobe, loads of clothes, big expensive cars, sports cars, rings, like the things people can see. But if bigger house or car that would help the economy of my family (because too many members or work purpose then okay).
This reminded me of my ustaz during kursus kahwin, that he spends his money for his wife buying K-drama stuff. Things that people can't see.
I just can't blame the person above coz every person's interest is different.
But then maybe I just dislike showing expensive things to the public, or make it visible, you know what I mean? You are not showing, you are just simply wearing it, but you going out, can be seen by public, hence it doesn't feel good.
To make it fair, I still loooove rings but only those silver or silver gold rings AND if the design is like for example, a FOX, an animal sort of kind, and not like those like in the photo haha.
But... I think what I'm saying here, for myself, is the fact that, you need to be gifted material things in order for you to bless your own spouse. I mean I know, it's not wrong to have these things, tapi berpada-pada, dan tengok apa niat.
Welp, I could be very wrong.
Wallahua'lam.
Feb 16, 2021
As views and follower count increased, I began to shrink. I felt incredibly small and I struggled a lot and spoke constantly with Him. "Ya Allah, keep my heart sincere. Allow me to be firm in my intentions and don't let me be swayed or distracted by things that don't please You. Keep using me for good, keep sending me good companions and good teachers, and keep me firm on Your Path!"
Feb 20, 2021
You know what keeps me sane and somewhat calm, my online usrah AAPlus, and the Quran recitations and Selawat Syifa' that I let play on computer on loud speaker.
Coz no matter how I try to block negative thoughts, I couldn't do it by myself. I need assistance like those I mentioned earlier.
So alhamdulillah for the people that exist around me, real-life or online, directly or indirectly reminding me of Allah and good things <3
Feb 20, 2021
AA said in one post of how she misses Masjids so much and that just reminds me of especially during University time when I would go around with friends and visited various kinds of Musolla and Masjids.
I loved how I was able to visit suraus and masjid. It's a lovely feeling although some suraus or masjids are not women-friendly but that's the test that we need to go through just for the sake of Allah.
Alhamdulillah for the opportunity.
I pray may we are able to visit the Houses of Allah.
Amin.
Feb 28, 2021
May Allah always guide us to people, places, and opportunities where there is nothing but goodness and lightness, Amin.
— AAPlus
