#33

Whenever I successfully refrained myself from releasing my anger, I feel so thankful and relieved. Like alhamdulillah Allah SWT has granted me sabr, has granted His servant a reminder to self to istighfar, has granter His servant to remember Him. 

I have a history and kinda come from my family, of having anger management issue. Not something big, but big enough to affect our own little lives. 

It's my dad. Not to aibkan dia. But masyaaAllah Dad has changed since he started getting closer to Allah. I can also see that through my brother whom he was also seemed distant, but now is so gentle, just looking at how he talks and treats his kids now. Allahu. Bless him.

I told my colleague of how I was so unsatisfied with our Auditor because it took them a month to get back to me just to tell there is a difference in the opening balance. In which if I was in his shoes, I'd complete it in just a day. A DAY. 

But then I asked him first of his workings and details and such. I decided to not bombard him with angry words but instead solve the problem first. And alhamdulillah, I got to prove him the difference and the adjustments I have made to tally to audited balance, just because I ask him for his workings (prior to further discussions).

And that's why, I feel so thankful and relieved that I did not get angry at him. 

I  know sometimes you gotta say it, the mistakes of others, but... my dear self Erin, sorry but I just couldn't. I know my colleague would be kind of frustrated that I'm this way but I'm sorry, girl, I'm trying xD

But really, it's a good feeling to know that I have decided to refrain from saying something. Because kerana mulut badan binasa, and terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata buruk padahnya.