Pinpoint

You doubted yourself but people see your potential.
Still they couldn't see the inside, of what you really feel. People don't know that you couldn't handle stress that much.
But still you won't back off because you don't want them to be left hanging. Who could possibly be helping them if not you?
You know you are kind of having regrets for turning that opportunity down. It seems like the work she gets is still the only bit of what you do. You still have huge responsibility.
Maybe not being at upperhand ease a bit of burden. But you still don't know the work you have to do. It may be bigger than what you already have. You don't know. Every thing is unsure. Just be ready that it might be heavier than you thought it'd be.
You can't have ever thing your way. Ni la namanya kuli. You just
do what the upper management tells you to do. You have been wanting to be low anyway. Just don't regret later. And it's too late to regret anyway.